Lately I've been feeling quite down in the dumps. That's why I haven't been blogging much, what's the point of a motivation blog that's all sad and depressing?

I've really been thinking a lot lately, and that's not really a good thing where I'm concerned. Definitely feeling the stress. I don't look it, but I'm screaming inside. 11 S2s for SYF, I don't know how we'll cope. We could barely have been heard as it was. Then again, Mr Lim did purge out the rather soft ones. I'm not saying they're bad, because I would have said they were in the past, but I've seen plenty of improvement in them, so they aren't bad. Definitely not. In my honest opinion, I believe that they're the ones who practise the most. Other than Wee Nee, I think. I'm very frustrated because I feel a need to tell them off but it's not my place, definitely not my place. I'm equivalent to a sec 2 in choir, but less. They're all fantastically talented. I'm not. But don't they want a Distinction? They all said they did. I personally feel if we do our utmost best, it doesn't matter where we go. If we get Distinction this year, I'm not sure how I'd feel. I feel so responsible for the section not being as good as the other sections because I suck so bad. I'm betting the socks on my feet that Mr Lim only kept me on because I blast. I'm really trying, but I never have a conducive environment for practising, especially because I seem fine by myself, but with the other sections... Well. Also feeling rather ugh at myself because I can only sing 2 octaves.

Bio has also been on my mind a lot lately. Not just because of the upcoming SPA, but because of my marks on a recent test. 33/50 is not good. I've recently realised that I'm not as stupid as I thought I was. If I managed to get the scores I did last year when I didn't take my studies seriously, I can do better if I do. Here's to hoping March will bring me to understand the complexities of Chemistry so much better. Rethinking my poly course as well, since it's rather Chemistry-heavy and Chemistry is one of the things I struggle with. Due to the small details I need to memorise, I think. I'm better with a big picture of noticeable details than everything at once. I think Mrs Kang is disappointed in me even though she doesn't show it.

Chemistry is not difficult.
Chemistry is fun.
Chemistry is a friend.
(End: propaganda)

I really must buck up on Bio. Been neglecting it for amaths, as many of my friends know. (Not that I have many. Oho. Wordplay?) I think April will be bio month. May will be humanities and June amaths again. July and August humanities, September emath, October full steam revision. The year is really very short. I feel like I've wasted so much time, which is true, but also not because I've done a lot on amath. I've also come to like trigo better.

Life isn't its best, but I am content with what I have.

Everyone knows of fantastic Thomas Edison tale where he failed to make a lightbulb *insert a fantastic number here* times, but continued until he found a way to make the lightbulb. The point of telling you this is to repeat what he said.
“I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work.”
I've always found this a good way to look at things, but only lately have I employed this outlook. Every single time I fail to produce my desired outcome, I am motivated to try again, thinking, “Okay, so I can't do it this way,". We are constantly learning. It's only whether we process them and classify them as “learning" or not.

Labels: choir, motivation, olevels

Lately I've been feeling quite down in the dumps. That's why I haven't been blogging much, what's the point of a motivation blog that's all sad and depressing?

I've really been thinking a lot lately, and that's not really a good thing where I'm concerned. Definitely feeling the stress. I don't look it, but I'm screaming inside. 11 S2s for SYF, I don't know how we'll cope. We could barely have been heard as it was. Then again, Mr Lim did purge out the rather soft ones. I'm not saying they're bad, because I would have said they were in the past, but I've seen plenty of improvement in them, so they aren't bad. Definitely not. In my honest opinion, I believe that they're the ones who practise the most. Other than Wee Nee, I think. I'm very frustrated because I feel a need to tell them off but it's not my place, definitely not my place. I'm equivalent to a sec 2 in choir, but less. They're all fantastically talented. I'm not. But don't they want a Distinction? They all said they did. I personally feel if we do our utmost best, it doesn't matter where we go. If we get Distinction this year, I'm not sure how I'd feel. I feel so responsible for the section not being as good as the other sections because I suck so bad. I'm betting the socks on my feet that Mr Lim only kept me on because I blast. I'm really trying, but I never have a conducive environment for practising, especially because I seem fine by myself, but with the other sections... Well. Also feeling rather ugh at myself because I can only sing 2 octaves.

Bio has also been on my mind a lot lately. Not just because of the upcoming SPA, but because of my marks on a recent test. 33/50 is not good. I've recently realised that I'm not as stupid as I thought I was. If I managed to get the scores I did last year when I didn't take my studies seriously, I can do better if I do. Here's to hoping March will bring me to understand the complexities of Chemistry so much better. Rethinking my poly course as well, since it's rather Chemistry-heavy and Chemistry is one of the things I struggle with. Due to the small details I need to memorise, I think. I'm better with a big picture of noticeable details than everything at once. I think Mrs Kang is disappointed in me even though she doesn't show it.

Chemistry is not difficult.
Chemistry is fun.
Chemistry is a friend.
(End: propaganda)

I really must buck up on Bio. Been neglecting it for amaths, as many of my friends know. (Not that I have many. Oho. Wordplay?) I think April will be bio month. May will be humanities and June amaths again. July and August humanities, September emath, October full steam revision. The year is really very short. I feel like I've wasted so much time, which is true, but also not because I've done a lot on amath. I've also come to like trigo better.

Life isn't its best, but I am content with what I have.

Everyone knows of fantastic Thomas Edison tale where he failed to make a lightbulb *insert a fantastic number here* times, but continued until he found a way to make the lightbulb. The point of telling you this is to repeat what he said.
“I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work.”
I've always found this a good way to look at things, but only lately have I employed this outlook. Every single time I fail to produce my desired outcome, I am motivated to try again, thinking, “Okay, so I can't do it this way,". We are constantly learning. It's only whether we process them and classify them as “learning" or not.

Labels: choir, motivation, olevels